Post by loubizzle on Nov 11, 2009 21:12:12 GMT
"why did I come back here again... it doesn't make sense."
It had been several hours since I had left the Dali ally, It was raining then and it was raining now. It seemed as though the day was doomed. I was hungry, wet, and cold. I hadn't eaten for some time and the clothes I had on were starting to catch oder... To top it all off I was standing in front of my mothers grave just a few miles outside of Dali. it had been three or so years now since I had come from a hunting venture to find that the place I was raised had been reduced to smoldering ash.
"Don't go there"
I told myself, I knew that thinking about it would only make my heart sink deeper. I walked to the other side of the grave and planted myself. I leaned my back and my head against the cold, wet, stone, Closed my eyes and started softly humming a melody from long ago. It was clear but not loud and listening to myself go, I almost lost myself in peace. Maybe this was the reason i had returned here. Spending so much time being angry searching for things to lash out at. A moment of peace is priceless.
"Wouldn't you agree momma???"
I felt slightly foolish talking to a tombstone, but something felt right about it. I waited for her answer and found it in my imagination. I knew she would agree, she always had. I sat their for what felt like hours just me in this moment of almost peace. I knew it wouldn't last long. I couldn't stay here and expect to not dwell on what once was and that would only bring back the sadness. I stood up and turned my head to the left effectively staring at the patch of brown grass where three years ago my home sat.
"This place messes with my head to much... I gotta get outta here."
That peaceful feeling had faded, I thought about THAT time again and just like it always did, everything else faded. I didn't have anywhere to go, I was hungry Oh man I was so hungry. My stomach made a funny noise confirming my thoughts and for some reason i just felt even shittier. I was homeless, hungry and even worse alone.
*You have been ssspared*
My mind just takes me from dark to darker...I could see his eyes now, yellow and the pupils slender like that of a serpents. My hands both moved to my stomach where one year ago he had ripped humanity away. I clenched my fists and shut my eyes tight I felt a rush of emotion and I fought as hard as I could to not let it wash over my face. That man has taken so much from me, I just want it back...
"SHE'S MINE DAMNIT, YOU HEAR ME SHE'S MINE AND I WANT HER BACK!!!"
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It had been several hours since I had left the Dali ally, It was raining then and it was raining now. It seemed as though the day was doomed. I was hungry, wet, and cold. I hadn't eaten for some time and the clothes I had on were starting to catch oder... To top it all off I was standing in front of my mothers grave just a few miles outside of Dali. it had been three or so years now since I had come from a hunting venture to find that the place I was raised had been reduced to smoldering ash.
"Don't go there"
I told myself, I knew that thinking about it would only make my heart sink deeper. I walked to the other side of the grave and planted myself. I leaned my back and my head against the cold, wet, stone, Closed my eyes and started softly humming a melody from long ago. It was clear but not loud and listening to myself go, I almost lost myself in peace. Maybe this was the reason i had returned here. Spending so much time being angry searching for things to lash out at. A moment of peace is priceless.
"Wouldn't you agree momma???"
I felt slightly foolish talking to a tombstone, but something felt right about it. I waited for her answer and found it in my imagination. I knew she would agree, she always had. I sat their for what felt like hours just me in this moment of almost peace. I knew it wouldn't last long. I couldn't stay here and expect to not dwell on what once was and that would only bring back the sadness. I stood up and turned my head to the left effectively staring at the patch of brown grass where three years ago my home sat.
"This place messes with my head to much... I gotta get outta here."
That peaceful feeling had faded, I thought about THAT time again and just like it always did, everything else faded. I didn't have anywhere to go, I was hungry Oh man I was so hungry. My stomach made a funny noise confirming my thoughts and for some reason i just felt even shittier. I was homeless, hungry and even worse alone.
*You have been ssspared*
My mind just takes me from dark to darker...I could see his eyes now, yellow and the pupils slender like that of a serpents. My hands both moved to my stomach where one year ago he had ripped humanity away. I clenched my fists and shut my eyes tight I felt a rush of emotion and I fought as hard as I could to not let it wash over my face. That man has taken so much from me, I just want it back...
"SHE'S MINE DAMNIT, YOU HEAR ME SHE'S MINE AND I WANT HER BACK!!!"
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